Track 2 Thiruvalla!!!

Its been a long time since i blogged.....well dats bcoz i was lazy 2 type anythin.....hw cud i b not b lazy??....its in ma blood and besides ma bike was in da workshop.....so jst imagine urself sittin in front of da tv da whole day....eatin and changin channels........dat was sum life until ur parents starts shoutinand u go 2 bed tired....."tired".......I've been like dat 4 five or six days i think and then da phone comes......betty ammachi callin me and askin me 2 get 2 thiruvalla pronto( wow dat was fast)..........they think i'm da responsible type in da family ( grave mistake) and asked me 2 help out with their son garychayan's weddin......dat was da cue for ma parents......I've never seen them pack anythin dat fast.....Ammachi called me like 10  at nite and wen i woke up next mornin thrs a bag on ma table with all da clothes (ironed), ma slippers and all da stuff i need 4 a month in dat bag. The only confusion was da train....shud i go in da 9 O clock or 11 O clock train??? hmmmm.......finally by 10:45 they decided dat i shud go on da 11 O clock train......thanx 2 aadi i was able 2 get 2 da station on time.

I took a sleeper class ticket.....thought i'll hv a nap....afterall......it takes almost 3hrs 2 reach thiruvalla........the compartment i took first didnt hv much ppl (or so i thought). I always walk 2 da backside of the train (dis ma dad taught me) so dat u cud get gud seats....ppl wont bother much 2 walk 2 da bak...they jump in2 da compartments in front of them and walk inside da train 4 seats......i was bein samrt and got in2 a compartment......i took a sideseat at thr were sum young nice lukin girls in thr......i thought dat was ma lucky day.....and it was nice 2 see more and more girls gettin in da compartment ("jackpot")....sum of them were starin at me and holdin a smile and i was smilin at everyone..(who wudnt) until an older lady asked me 2 get up and told me dat it was da ladies compartment and i better scram before she reports me 2 police.....(kk cant any of da girls tell me dat).....well i had 2 get out and run before da train leaves....got in another one and found a crammy seat among sum family......and wat a family dat was.......they were shoutin..... literally shoutin 2 each other......and da kids....oohhh boy.....thrs this one brat who keeps climbin up 2 da top bunk and always lands on ma lap da whole time.......jumpin, runnin all over da place......i cudnt even sit straight cos of these ppl.

I thanked God 2 soon......no sooner had i saw da station approachin i jumped up 2 get ma bag 2 find under sum cartons of dat GODDAMN family.......dis time i lost it....totally flipped.....i jst yanked it out and jst ran....i knw sum cartons must hv fell...i didnt care....i was so fed up....ma only thought was 2 reach home.......i jumped inside da auto and jst stared......4got da name of da place i shud b goin...... i called up ma dad and he gave me all da directions......he was thankful dat i got out on da rite station and didnt fell asleep!!!!!!

IF ONLY HE KNEW!!!!

LIFE....

Hv u ever felt sumthin?.....anythin?......

luv?......hate?......anger?......jealousy?....

Hv u felt anythin dat u cant define.......somethin so strong dat eats up within u and it consumes u......totally and absolutly....yet u dnt really knw wat it means.....wats causin it......wat does it want.......wat do u want??>....

mayb its just 4 a moment......mayb forever....but u knw dat it was thr or is always gonna stay......wat was it?....y is it?......wats it worth....y u???

Thr r moments in everybody's life dat they cant define......a certain moment of uncertainity...

Most care 2 move on without even tryin 2 knw y???4 Others da entire lifetime isnt enough......

Alotta questions .....and no answers......and wen we do find it......it all comes 2 an end.....cycle of life and death...

What 2 believe?!?!?!?!?!

The other day i was chkin out facebook, a frnd of mines' status really shook me out. It goes sumthin like dis " If humans are created in da image of GOD, doesn't it mean dat GOD himself is flawed." hmmmmmmmm..........isn't dis true??!!!! The human race has been considered as da most supreme of all species on earth. He has da most powerful weapon dat makes all da difference......HIS BRAIN...Intelligence,ability 2 think (in such a complex manner). Just imagine hw much we hv grown.....a million years bak we cudn't even stand on our legs and nw we fly outta this world 2 other planets.........even our basic necessities...food, clothin and shelter.....all changed.

But we haven't changed one bit.....all these technologies and other discoveries and inventions jst made our world a better place 2 live in....... in fact these are luxuries......we go after it get wat we need and want and yet we never get satisfied.......we still go 4 more......we hv dis hunger dat never diminish. We are like animals.....its our natural instinct.....no matter hw long u hold back one day or another it will come out......wen ur pushed, killin becomes as easy as breathin.........

So is GOD like dis.....did he create da whole world and its beings jst 2 destroy it one day.........
If we r livin a life like dis (wen we r jst mortals and delicate) and still goes on livin without a purpose.....like a dog chasin a car......without a reason.......then wat wud we turn in2 in our life after death.......ETERNAL WASTES!!!

Planning.....

2day even as i woke up i knew i had 2 do stuff.....(dnt misunderstand.....dat was no insight). Ma dad was screamin at me 4 nothin (atleast dats wat i thought) 4 not doin anythin in da house (thr's a lil bit of truth in it)......so i decided 2 go out....in2 da outdoors....took ma dad's bike (i didn't ask......sry dad).

First i went 2 da chopshop and  found ma engine chopped in 2 ( almost took ma breath away). Da mech told me dat it wont "cost much" and dat i need 2 buy sum parts (i'm screwed).....bid gudbye 2 da mech (and ma bike) and went 2 'CCD' (ooohhhh yeah)....

Thr i was tryin 2 work things out......gotta go 2 university......then 2 press club.......gotta work with ma dad dis afternoon......and a gudnite sleep.I thought......dat get all ma marks and other certificates and ma dad congratulatin me 4 a job well done dat i 4got it was almost half past 1.....so i raced 2 da university 2 find dat thr closed 4 lunch break....went 2 press club and got ma bag (didnt screw dat up ppl).....finally wen i reached home it hap all of a sudden....ma dad came rushin 2 me......took da bike and went offf.....(he didn't even say a word) had lunch by 3 and somehow slept off watchin a movie....

Wen woke up no1s here....So i decided 2 blog (i had 2 do sumthin)!!!!!!!!!

A Good Deed!!!!

It was da most borin day of ma life..........i did nothin......usually do nothin but still jst 2 sit in frnt of da tv frm 9 am - 5 pm.........dat really matters (whr in hell am i gettin all these insights???)...dats wen a call came.....kiran and chris....they want me at da guidance center pronto.....4 a youth prayer meet ( pls dnt ask da details).....its jst sum 15 min walk 4 me but still i asked kappi (aka kiran) 2 pick me up......

As usual we were late....tried 2 get 2 da last row (failed miserably and ended in da first).....ppl were lookin at us...even da priest....and we had 2 sing....(atleast pretended 2 sing)....and in jst 15 min da prayer ended.....I really luved it cos it ended so fast and dats wen ACHEN reminded me dat i was 45 min late (45 min !!!!).....

After prayer it was time dinner.....and i got lucky....RICE SOUP......had a bowl......and went back 2 ma home.....

P.S:- I knw da title and da post doesn't match but still......I TRIED.....dat outta count 4 sumthin!!!

The See'Off"

Day 2 

Its always sad 2 c off ur frnds.....after all da things u've been through.........NAAA......at first it really was sad 2 c henna go.....later on it was kinda fun.....jst imagine wen they cant adjust 2 a new situation and  think abt da life theyhad bak home and wen u call her or text her all they cn say is thr probs and hw much they miss life bak here and u no matter hw crazy badass u are........dat feelin's awesome......

Anyway i went 2 da station 2 bid goodbye (she improved alot...usually she cries so loud like da world gone all crazy...silly lil thing) and thr was some 5-6 ppl 2 c her off (wats dis world comin 2). Me and Binu were sittin inside da train then reetz came along took sum pics in  her brand new "D3000" (shud hv seen her face wen henna took da cam frm her). Henna's mom was sittin beside her explainin hw guys make a pass on girls.....we hade coffee (courtesy henna's mom) and it was abt time 4 da train 2 leave....we all got out and was  watchin henna tryin 2 luk okay with her wry smile.....and i was busy irritatin gautamy....also explainin 2 da girls hw ma newyear went....Slowly da train stared movin (surprisingly it was on time) and we all watched henna wavin her hand..holdin bak her tears...wavin at us in da distance under da settin sun.....like a speck and suddenly i realised i 4got 2 take ma bag frm da train....

GOD!!!!!!! Ma whole life was in dat bag.....ma ids,papers of ma bike, account details.....nw i know da meanin of da phrase 'Rooted 2 da ground'......didnt knw wat 2 do....henna's mom was furious at me and all others were laughin like they seen a some sortta comedy act.........well i called jijin....thinkin dat he mite b able 2 collect it.....and i was glad 2 hear dat he was on da 4th platform at da station (luv ya bro)......well he was quick...he called a frnd in varkala and asked him 2 pick up da bag.....and so he did and nw ma bag's in varkala......hope i'll get it bak on monday...........i was so absent minded dat day dat i 4got 2 pay a shopkeeper....(hope binu paid it)

If dis is hw ma year started i dnt even wanna think abt da end of da year!!!!!!!!!!

Kick Start!!

I thought of startin ma very own blog da 1st of dis month itself. I always had high expectations abt dis year......"2010"....i knew dat all of ma frnds will b here and it wud b a blast....also i thought da new year wud b a good change 4 me.....after 6 months of "vacation".......was thinkin abt a change in life.... organised systematic way of livin in harmony with all livin and non-livin things in dis world......gettin 2 knw abt da spiritual side of life.......

It really was a bright sunny day and we already planned 2 meet up at our old mar ivanios. It was nostalgic and da college changed alot....anyway we walked around da campus chattin, laughin 4 no reason like da good old times...took sum pics and decided 2 go da bakery whr we usually eat after class......(MIRACLE:Good ol' Tinu paid da bill) i had a whacky idea dat we all go 2 ponmudi...so da girls went home and da boys were on da road 2 da hills.....thr were 8 of us and so we took 4 bikes...It took almost an hour 2 reach thr..had sum breaks durin da ride....

The road was terrible....almost like a dirt road. Sum renovations was goin on so thr were lots of trucks and jcbs on our way and finally wen we reached da top it was heaven.......we went 2 da topmost point and jst sat thr 4 a while....chattin...we went 4 trekkin through da rocks and dat sure did took da breath outta us.........thr were sum members of ghost riderz , famous bike stunters and they were doin sum tricks on thr bikes and as i watched them....i kinda wanted 2 do those tricks...so i started doin burn outs and wheelies....eventhough ma frnds told me not 2.....went crazy.....adrenaline pumpin....blood rushin through ur face....its an awesome feelin...and suddenly it all came 2 a standstill...ma bike aint movin even though da engines runnin....dats wen i realized i'm screwed.....well its any1s worst nightmare gettin stuck at top of da hill wen the sun's settin and ur almost 60 kms away frm ur home>>>>>da way down da hill was easy and binu almost fell off frm a cliff...other than dat nothin much happ...reached da bottom of da hill....thrs no way ma bike's movin...gautam was ridin at dat point me and ma frnds tugged it 2 da 'nearest' workshop(15kms away)...

To our "great relief" dat guy cant fix da problem....so we bought a rope....tied it 2 ma bike and 2 an enticer and tugged it home.......wat a way 2 start a new year!!!!!!!!